Surrendering the Stones - Guiltless and Free

What is guilt? What is guilt based, or built upon? From whence does guilt arrive?

What have we attached to in life that is then fueling and sustaining our guilt? Do we understand how guilt is fantasy?

There is no guilt in presence.

There is no guilt bubbling new into the Now. Guilt requires a foothold in the past; a foundation in the past that is then experienced today as illusion. Guilt may also reside in the future fantasies of things that have not occurred. We may feel guilty for what we have not even done, or what we had planned on doing that we did not do, and in this way we may never be present. Guilt is not now.

Guilt cannot exist in the now other than as a preexisting energetic consciousness machine that is creating the fantasy and is supported by artificiality. In order to feel guilty we are associating with either what has, or what may occur. These situations are based upon that that they themselves are supported by illusory time-lines.

When we say, "I feel guilty." what are we saying? We are saying that we are living in an awareness based on the unreal. We are living in what may have happened and what might. We are reacting to dream and not the moment.

Guilt is a dream, and not a fun dream right?

Guilt is a dream that we carry like stones in our pockets until one day we are so overburdened that we cannot move. We are weighed down in a mire of illusion; in our emotional attachments. What is interesting is that how freely we give our stones of guilt to others. We then have fantasies of guilt in ours and other people's lives that are perpetuated by the passing of guilt-stones. One person feels guilty about something that was not solely their fault, or never truly occurred. They then convincingly share this with another and another until soon this unreality has become a real issue.

We need to realize each stone and its origin within our consciousness to find freedom of guilt; of fantasy. Concerning this, it is not an easy situation. Guilt relies on preexisting energetic conditions for survival and power. Guilt is also integral to our ego: the limited idea we have of ourselves.

So, how do we become free of Guilt?

When we own all of the decisions we have made in our life we are then in a detached conscious space to observe the conscious structures upon which guilt depends. As we observe this "opened" interior space created through the acceptance of our past choices, the energies (or energetic modules) of guilt egress, and disconnection and dissolution occurs. We are then free. By accepting that we have created our life we taste the pure power that we are. This power knows more than the limited concept of guilt. There is no past or future in acceptance, only the moment. We do not need to ruminate over each aspect of guilt we are experiencing. We only need to open up to the possibility that guilt is not real. That guilt is not based in the Now. Then the GOD (or expanded oneness of love that we are) will be free to BE.

Guilt is near-sighted awareness.

The love that we are observes our entire life experience, and this includes the "fragment" of guilt we are limiting our awareness to. Because we have expanded into more of what we are by owning our choices we begin to "see" and know guilt as the fantasy-based reality it is. When we stop giving our power away, or stop claiming that "something" else is living for us, we begin to embody what we have been afraid of or presently worship. And what we revere or have revered has no guilt, only the ego (the limited concept we have of ourselves) has guilt. As we become conscious of this expanded aspect of our being we realize the construction of guilt. We observe from beyond guilt.

Own every decision so the energetic attachments to the past and future may resolve and you will then be here, now, in the present of presence, Guiltless and Free.

Examining the Concept of Having a Mission

Hello me.

I had an interesting conversation with a close friend this morning. It is incredible experiencing another aspect of the mystery in the form of a person. As we were talking we began to speak candidly about inner experiences that we have each had. I realize this tends to lead to inexplicable areas, but nevertheless we traveled on.

I have this consistent experience of becoming involved with something and then absorbing, absolving, assimilating and the losing the impetus that brought me there in the first place. Hence, I drift away from what had “caught” my attention. This is just the way it is. It is not better or worse than another. I do not ask or create this. I don’t attribute this to some divine mysterious deity – it just is. This has become more rapid these past few years. The amount of time I spend passing through a belief or concept is lessening.

The only way I can explain this is that after being “in” a group or movement or teaching I start to feel confined for some reason, and then suddenly I am back out with the knowing that I do not need to be in what I was in for completion. Yes, it as though any time I become involved with an energy that does not know its own completeness I am uncomfortable. It as though I have to pretend that I incomplete and empathetic to whatever has now entered my reality to create the sustaining relationships. I don’t have many relationships and do not mind. Maybe I am finally at 40 beginning to believe in me.

I have no idea what I know. I don’t claim to know more than another; in fact, the only thing I do is un-know.

So my friend and I have musically performed numerous times and it has been fine, almost introductory. Now he is formulating larger projects, possibly global and this certain caveat I brought up. This individual is on a mission; so conclusively the direction and eventual projects all are under this umbrella. Stand in the rain.

Mission? What does this mean? What does it mean when we say “I have a mission?” All that I feel today through my being is I am experiencing a consciousness that must fix things to then know peace. I can see this is the new “spiritual” market and tools, and within layers and layers of teachings. How will this consciousness ever find wholeness if it only looks for what it thinks needs fixing? As I stated in a previous blog; in order to fulfill the hunger of a mission one would then need to experience a reality that needs solving or fixing to thus be “on” their mission. Does this make sense? I realize and remain open as I experience this person in my life.

Would not this translate into environment seeing that those on a mission will have to have things to resolve to satisfy their need to be on a mission? It seems to me that you could be in a slum or on some other plane of evolved existence and still “see” what you need to see and not truth to justify the mission.

I don’t have a mission, which as been the most confusing aspect of my journey and eventual saving grace.

As we were speaking I wished I could draw out the image I was seeing in my head; I speak in relationships and geometry. I would draw a circle in the center of a piece of paper. I would draw a Yin/Yang sign in the circle representing the natural balance of Earth. I would then for clarities sake draw another small “human” circle outside of the main Earth circle and yet within a dashed larger circle of influence approximately 3 times the diameter of the Earth. We can say that this is the vibration influence of our race (just for rhetorical theory, seeing vibration is real to us). Now let us say that the Earth is a musical octave. As we know a musical note is just the vibration of a string at different oscillating ratios. You can create any note on one string. Each human may be the physical manifestation of a musical note traveling through the oscillations of creation I would then draw many small lines from the small “human” circle attaching to the Earth, and then lines going out in all directions for a visual reference to the beyond.

If we look at our teacher in action by observing nature we see that despite what we think or feel it is balanced. We realize the further we step back, the clearer nature becomes. We can not step in and remove a certain species of plant, animal, or mineral or everything is affected. We are seeing the result of the experiments attempted through our growing understanding today in the accelerated changes in our environment. Through wisdom can we “let it be?” We can construe the shifting of tectonic plates as horrible or chaotic or a result of sinful actions; or, we can know the impermanence of life and just observe without any conceptual attachment and be in peace no matter the situation. Of course I am not perfect and still have many dramas but I am observing.

Can this not be done with our human structure as well?

So if we take one on a mission as an example, and they are here on the Earth, would it not suffice it to say that the Earth can cater to this being’s desire? Yes. Then can we also say when talking about an Indian sage or New Age teacher or one we consider awake or enlightened that the Earth is for them as well? Yes. So the Earth can be all these things, but how is this possible? Is it not in the eye of the beholder? Can we then state that not ONE of these realities has precedence over another, just as not one tree or animal species has precedence over the other? We could then accept the Earth, all of it, and find our peace within by not trying to fix things and just observing our own nature. Imagine what we can experience if we are only allowing the moment to flow through, the alive and flowing reality instead of our limited beliefs which fester in the past. Sit and ponder how much energy is being spent on the not now. Do you see how truly there is only a smallest of fractions that are present? Of course there are needed modalities at this time to keep order, even though the chaos is immeasurable.

I must digress; I was watching the “Planet Earth” DVD series yesterday and thought, “if we take all the energy that is feeding conservation and animal preservation and global warming causes or any “fix it” consciousness for that matter and changed the lesser-evolved stagnant creations that are disrupting nature, all would solve itself through the joy of life expressing itself.”

You can’t change the reflection; you can only change the subject – I love that.

If all these groups truly want change then they should unite and be the change. It is comical to see them clearing the water just around the corner from a factory which is dumping waste into it; or spending monies on creating “safe” environments for animals when it is the accepted companies that are causing the “problems.” Do we see that this complete design can be bypassed by using our energy not to feed the illusion but by collecting and being the now? Collecting and allowing life to express nature through us; and we can see that nature does know what is doing, far more that we can grasp – so let it do what it does. Let new creative companies create new harmonies because this is what they are doing. Nature does not try and repair a bloom that has fallen to the Earth, it grows a new bloom. And here’s the kicker, it experiences life through the fallen petals by absorbing the elements that have comprised it within that exact moment of the now. If nature spent its energy on fixing the dying, then it would cease to exist as we know it.

OK, back to the subject at hand; we can then say that everything on the Earth is comprised of this octave or it would not be know to us. Can we say that this Earth is a teacher? If we can, then can we further state that the lessons are so numbered and diverse that we could never know them all and that maybe we don’t have to? Can we then say that all the things in the world that we place such emphasis on and that seem vital are possibly not? Could we then observe that what is left is ourselves?

Concerning the mission; what I have been attempting to explain is if that if the one core thing our reality is saying to us is to look and know ourselves, as the wise ones have stated, and we do become aware of more than the concept of “fixing” or not accepting the balance of nature, is it not logical that we would have learned to know and accept ourselves as the Earth has taught and that we then will have new unlimited experience? This makes sense too me, I am not sure about anyone else. So could we then say that by seeing (though we don’t want to) that even this body is impermanent by nature’s design that we would continue to experience the Earth as we know it until we learn this truth? We can even look at this through physics and the laws we understand at this time. We know that we are a consciousness that is beyond our musings and endless, everything points to this knowing. We also realize that everything is actually a part of one connected something. So concerning the Earth, it is our vibration interplay, or attachments that incorporate us into this octave. If we are living middle “C”, and middle “c” is Earth as we know it, then we are here. So if a “mission” consciousness is within this Earth octave we can conclude that despite the impermanence we will continue to be here. So theoretically we are then in a self-perpetuating loop of the Universe creating the situation to satisfy our current evolutionary beliefs: missions, until we through observance realize that our life is just the expression of being alive. We can still be doing exactly what we were doing but from a larger perspective, and thus not limited in scope.

Express for the joy of expressing. Sing to sing. Paint to paint. Create a business because this is expressing who you are. Heal to heal, not because you think people need healing but because you love life and all that you experience in it. It may seem like a small thing, but this is beyond semantics and could be far-reaching. Let this, the tiniest of shifts occur by just observing now that it can. Truly, it is analogous to being in a room or to being in the world. Another thing to realize is that when we are living within a confined consciousness we tend to express through recycling. It is analogous to everyone on a plane inhaling and exhaling the same air until one opens the door and new air arrives. So we could also say that the now or newness of experience is expressing through unconfined means as well as working mysteriously everywhere beyond the scope of my understanding. Conversely, if we only observe and not attach ourselves to any limiting factors through our own evolutionary knowing, we are then naturally moving onto another octave due to the fact that we are not a part of the middle “c” octave. Additionally, if we are not placing our awareness on the lessons of the Earth, then where are we? And what then is being through us?

Let me clarify that I do not feel NOW is a frozen moment of existence. On the contrary, I suggest that it is an uninhibited expression of being that will eventually flow through any form.

A Visceral Anlysis of Consciousness

It is so interesting how we acquire knowledge.

I was sitting when through my mind came a visceral vision of fields of shaking cantilevered towers of cubes in an atmosphere of particle-filled air. Some particles appeared to swirl and dance on invisible currents while others were being drawn to and attaching to the towers. I knew that I was experiencing one of my strange inner metaphors, but for what?

I then thought about how we experience newness like the experiencing of a wild animal. At first the newness is unruly and difficult to hold or understand, sometimes even scratching or causing us discomfort as we struggle to assimilate. But after a while we understand a pleasing way to hold the animal and what factors create calmness within the relationship. We enjoy the sense of expansion like a sun ray through a keyhole. We are warmed and enveloped by the larger space. We have expanded to contain the new experience. What strikes me is the amazing fact that instead of letting the animal or newness continue to whence it came after we have gleaned all that we could harmoniously we place it into a cage and stack it up with the other once-new experiences we have had that are now comprising us. Suddenly we are living to collect the cages, or dead information, and not the living and flowing experience. We are spending our days overburdened with the impossible task of remembering what was, leaving no room or energy for what is now. I realized that there would be no towers to fight the wind and wrestle the impermanence of change if we did not cling to any newness and allowed the flow to flow. The towers I were seeing were the blocks of information desiring to return to the potential that is.

I realize cages is a harsh description, but this is what I am writing.

When there are no cages then there is no us, only the experience. I seem to enjoy these often geometric and yet simple understandings. I have always thought spatially and seem to continue to do so as I live.

It seems we only cage something so that we can at later time reveal that we have captured it. Our ego wants someone or something to think that what is in the cage is really our own. When we pull the rabbit out the hat we need the applause of the audience. This can be as simple as a poem or as complex as an axiomatic religious truth. We collect the data so we can use it in a later program that we then create through our observing of life in a certain way, through a certain lens. We are programmers who need a certain code of cages to justify the code we are writing. We are then in a loop that only feeds itself. We are then in a closed system that we know through the teaching of physics will eventually break down. The moment we take on the roll of a programmer we need to experience the code we desire to create the program, there is no other way. We then self-perpetuate our existence into a linear programming perspective.

How about a world without the need to program? What if all the programs are written and we only need to experience the running codes? What would we do if we were not programming?

Does it not seem that we do nothing but try and solve the programs we write?
If all programs eventually succumb to impermanence then there must be more to life than the continual programming of failing programs.


Peace.
Stillness
Wholeness

Experience

If you think there is more, than the understanding has not been reached because if you need more than you will experience the need for more.

We can see how this is an endless equation. There is no right or wrong, only experience, and this is what I am experiencing now.

I am not saying we should not create. I am pointing out how our creations will benefit by flowering out of the now instead of the dead information that we have captured. It is akin to creating something that already contains a hint of rust. This could explain how a child’s smile contains so much power; it is a direct smile from the moment. It is not a smile that has traveled through ideas of what a smile should be, or how a smiling person should act, or should I smile, or I hate my teeth, or how intense? It is a direct expression of living. It is an act of pure creation. There is no programming involved in a pure moment. It is a simple as a reaction - nature living naturally.

Another interesting way to look at how we learn is to see learning as compared to a grouping of objects (another programming nod). I think a teaching observation is that when we learn we tend to be only learning to the level that we are comfortable with and not wholly learning. One can see the inherent imitation when only learning to a certain degree of the circle. For example; someone who holds (interesting word usage) a strong belief about something tends to base all new information on that belief. Another way to say this is that they use the belief as a filter through which the information flows. We know what happens when we filter, hence the word “filter”, things are filtered out: omitted. The wholeness of the experience is subjected to the biases and affects of the pre-existing information filter. In order to have whole experience then we need to allow the foundation room for growth as well. We need to allow our deepest core aspects malleability. This could explain how one can experience such a profound life-changing moment seeing what has occurred is that the new knowledge has reached the foundation unobstructed. Another way is that the observer realizes the knowledge is coming from within, it is them. They are the knowledge. We are the river. When this happens the core of belief expands like a ripple into all existing knowledge stemming from this foundation, evolving as well, due to the expansion of the foundation.