A Visceral Anlysis of Consciousness

It is so interesting how we acquire knowledge.

I was sitting when through my mind came a visceral vision of fields of shaking cantilevered towers of cubes in an atmosphere of particle-filled air. Some particles appeared to swirl and dance on invisible currents while others were being drawn to and attaching to the towers. I knew that I was experiencing one of my strange inner metaphors, but for what?

I then thought about how we experience newness like the experiencing of a wild animal. At first the newness is unruly and difficult to hold or understand, sometimes even scratching or causing us discomfort as we struggle to assimilate. But after a while we understand a pleasing way to hold the animal and what factors create calmness within the relationship. We enjoy the sense of expansion like a sun ray through a keyhole. We are warmed and enveloped by the larger space. We have expanded to contain the new experience. What strikes me is the amazing fact that instead of letting the animal or newness continue to whence it came after we have gleaned all that we could harmoniously we place it into a cage and stack it up with the other once-new experiences we have had that are now comprising us. Suddenly we are living to collect the cages, or dead information, and not the living and flowing experience. We are spending our days overburdened with the impossible task of remembering what was, leaving no room or energy for what is now. I realized that there would be no towers to fight the wind and wrestle the impermanence of change if we did not cling to any newness and allowed the flow to flow. The towers I were seeing were the blocks of information desiring to return to the potential that is.

I realize cages is a harsh description, but this is what I am writing.

When there are no cages then there is no us, only the experience. I seem to enjoy these often geometric and yet simple understandings. I have always thought spatially and seem to continue to do so as I live.

It seems we only cage something so that we can at later time reveal that we have captured it. Our ego wants someone or something to think that what is in the cage is really our own. When we pull the rabbit out the hat we need the applause of the audience. This can be as simple as a poem or as complex as an axiomatic religious truth. We collect the data so we can use it in a later program that we then create through our observing of life in a certain way, through a certain lens. We are programmers who need a certain code of cages to justify the code we are writing. We are then in a loop that only feeds itself. We are then in a closed system that we know through the teaching of physics will eventually break down. The moment we take on the roll of a programmer we need to experience the code we desire to create the program, there is no other way. We then self-perpetuate our existence into a linear programming perspective.

How about a world without the need to program? What if all the programs are written and we only need to experience the running codes? What would we do if we were not programming?

Does it not seem that we do nothing but try and solve the programs we write?
If all programs eventually succumb to impermanence then there must be more to life than the continual programming of failing programs.


Peace.
Stillness
Wholeness

Experience

If you think there is more, than the understanding has not been reached because if you need more than you will experience the need for more.

We can see how this is an endless equation. There is no right or wrong, only experience, and this is what I am experiencing now.

I am not saying we should not create. I am pointing out how our creations will benefit by flowering out of the now instead of the dead information that we have captured. It is akin to creating something that already contains a hint of rust. This could explain how a child’s smile contains so much power; it is a direct smile from the moment. It is not a smile that has traveled through ideas of what a smile should be, or how a smiling person should act, or should I smile, or I hate my teeth, or how intense? It is a direct expression of living. It is an act of pure creation. There is no programming involved in a pure moment. It is a simple as a reaction - nature living naturally.

Another interesting way to look at how we learn is to see learning as compared to a grouping of objects (another programming nod). I think a teaching observation is that when we learn we tend to be only learning to the level that we are comfortable with and not wholly learning. One can see the inherent imitation when only learning to a certain degree of the circle. For example; someone who holds (interesting word usage) a strong belief about something tends to base all new information on that belief. Another way to say this is that they use the belief as a filter through which the information flows. We know what happens when we filter, hence the word “filter”, things are filtered out: omitted. The wholeness of the experience is subjected to the biases and affects of the pre-existing information filter. In order to have whole experience then we need to allow the foundation room for growth as well. We need to allow our deepest core aspects malleability. This could explain how one can experience such a profound life-changing moment seeing what has occurred is that the new knowledge has reached the foundation unobstructed. Another way is that the observer realizes the knowledge is coming from within, it is them. They are the knowledge. We are the river. When this happens the core of belief expands like a ripple into all existing knowledge stemming from this foundation, evolving as well, due to the expansion of the foundation.